Sunday, August 12, 2007

As it gets closer to midnight, my mind races... I've always had a hard time winding down. I really can't help myself! No matter how tired my body is, it just always seems like there is so much to do!

Today was such a great day! I wish Chris was with me today to share in my joy and excitement. The kids BOTH went into their classes with ease this morning at church, which doesn't usually happen, Amanda sang beautifully, Kyle spoke about what their purpose for coming to Hutto was while keeping practically everyone engaged, we got to hear about another Church Plant getting started here and listen to their story which was GREAT, and the BEST part... well that was listening to a young girl, probably 18 yrs old talk about her missionary work she's involved with over in the Dominican Republic.

As I type this and think about everything she said I am choked up. I sat listening to her, admiring her, hoping to one day see Adrianna in the same position as her, full of amazement as tears rolled down my face non-stop. I couldn't help but remember my thoughts and dreams when I was 17 years old. I had dreams of "saving the world", dreams of "helping the sick and the poor", dreams of becoming a woman others would admire and aspire to be like someday. And I couldn't help but to feel a little sad thinking, why didn't I do that? Why didn't I go to another country to help the less fortunate? Why wasn't I up on a stage telling my story to a congregation of people, mostly older than me???? Well it was pretty obvious,it just wasn't my time.

Wow, the freedom in saying those words. The relief of knowing I didn't do anything wrong, it just wasn't God's plan for me at that time. Today was just another one of those moments for me when I felt like I understood why I am where I'm at today doing the things I'm doing. I'm preparing my children to grow up in a life full of meaning, full of purpose. What better way to see that than to see their parents experience it first hand and show them the way?

When Chris came home tonight, we took the kids to the pool where we met up with friends and just talked, laughed and splashed around (until 8:00!). . . those moments are the "Hallmark" moments that I just can't put into words! This is what life is all about...days like today.

Well now I'm relaxed . .. . .

1 comment:

Amanda said...

I love this new blog! LOVE IT! So creative!