“Yet he has not left himself without testimony: He has shown kindness by giving you rain from heaven and crops in their seasons; he provides you with plenty of food and fills your hearts with joy."
When things seem so out of control and so unsure, it's a very comforting realization of the passage above. I struggle with wanting complete control over EVERYTHING. I'm not the most patient person. I grew up with having to make things happen if I wanted them. I had to overachieve to make myself feel worthy. I didn't have a whole lot of trust in many people, let alone "God".
Fear can be paralyzing, and in fact did that to me earlier this week, but as I sat back and reflected on the "facts" and not the "what ifs", or my interpretation of events, but the realization and again, facts, I was able to see what God has been preparing us for, seeing all the doors He has opened for us and was truly able to live in that moment of realizing HE is in control. He provides for us, he gives us opportunities, and like any "father", He hopes we take them and make the most of them....focus on today, be kind, show love, don't get consumed by your own thoughts, give to others. If you do that, those haunting feelings of negativity that like to come to surface, just won't. They are fought off by the overpowering love and amazing grace given to us by God.
We are dealing with a ton of change right now, but I just know that it's all going to work out. We are surrounded by family and a wonderful group of friends who "give life" to us. We have a beautiful family that we live each day for. This is what God has provided for us, this is the place he wants me to be right now. And I couldn't be more thankful.